Rain!

Ah the rain!  The rain reminds me of so many memories, good and bad.  One can really be sentimental every time it pours.  It seems like heaven brought down all the emotions one could possibly feel.  Gloomy as it is, people still have different ways of confronting such weather.  A lot find it disastrous and traumatic, connecting it to the sufferings others have experienced.  Some really do not care.  Then there are those who find it relaxing.  Whatever feelings it exposes, the rain will always be the same.  It comes and it goes.  It will always take part in our lives.

The gloomy weather never fails to give out a certain emotion that one cannot fathom.  I, for one, have had my share of sentiments as soon as the droplets of water signify its presence.  I remember years ago when I used to hate walking in the rain as much as I hate wet and cold feet, wet shoes, and mud.  Actually, I still feel annoyed whenever I have to walk and face the rain.  But there came moments, three times, if my memory serves me right; when I enjoyed walking with the tears of heaven as my company.  The first time was when I came face to face and was introduced to the guy that I liked.  The second was when I was reminded of such introduction.  And the third was when I just enjoyed my solitude then.  These instances are just simple things, yet something sentimental.

Sometimes, it is fun to live life out of the box.  So maybe, being one with the rain is something that we should look forward to.

_Anj

:D <3

life:love

They say that when you want something so bad, the universe will conspire in helping you achieve it (The Alchemist).  This made me hopeful – that someday, the one I want will choose me above everyone else.  But then your heart gets broken, without him even knowing.  You think it is unfair, but he did not even do anything.  He just made someone really happy by being with her.  How can I even compete with that?  No matter how many times you convince yourself that soon your time will come, soon you will move on, and soon you can just get over it; deep inside your heart, you know that soon is not enough.

Waiting has become a habit for the hopeless romantic - in love with the thought of being in love.  Looking back, I figured that you should also do something apart from such.  Otherwise, you will regret things that might lead to screwed chances, consequently making the waiting game unbearable.  Waiting entails risks to be considered and taken.  As to where taking these risks will lead us, no one knows.  But it does make life more exciting.

I, for one, am waiting.  And scared at the same time.  Too scared to take the risk and be hurt in the end.  I only have one wish though – that no matter how long the wait would be; when he comes, all the time spent would pay off.

 

_Anj

:D <3

Round 27 ;)

Two (2) and seven (7).  These are the numbers that I need to get used to hearing, writing, and reading.  Well, being 27 is not much of a challenge, since I have come to believe that age is just a number.  I remember when I was still in high school, I would picture myself as a grown-up lady – working in an office; drinking and catching up with my girl friends; traveling with, err, my boyfriend.  As of this moment, I think the first two have been realized.  The third one, well, maybe in the nearer future.  After all these years, I still feel that nothing has changed much.  I am still young, not so wild, and free.  Sometimes, random thoughts would hit me and what-ifs would besiege my mind.  What if I enrolled in a different school?  What if I took a different course?  What if I applied in a different company?  All these and that will just eventually expire after someone would bring me back in the now.  After everything that God has made me go through, I think by now, I am doing just fine.

For 27 years, I got to meet a lot of people.  I know that a bountiful more will come to give part in the completion of my existence.  For 27 years, I got to experience the culture of different places – three overseas and the others locally.  I am positive that I would be able to visit a lot, lot more places.  For 27 years, I am fortunate to have a profuse number of wonderful friends.  They form part of the reason why I am this crazy.  For 27 years, my family’s support never changed.  They have always been there for me, guiding and loving me, with or without flaws.

It has only been 27 years.  I know that I still have a long way to go.  As I go on, the past will always be precious.  The future will always be important.  But, it is in the present that I choose to live.

Cheers to being 27 and for 27 more years and more to come.

_Anj

:D <3

No goodbyes!

                                                                                        April 17, 2013

As I write on this blog, a friend is now on its way to a better change.  She has chosen to face the next chapter of her life with a new company, new colleagues, and new friends.  As her companion for years, I felt a tinge of sadness.  This, I think, was just normal – an initial reaction, if I must say.  But then, I have come to realize that I should not be feeling this way.  I should be happy for her.  This is a chance for her to grow, to be challenged, and to be completely happy.  She must not be stopped in pursuing her aspirations.

This is your time to shine, my friend.  You have waited long enough and worked hard for this.  We know that you will be transferring to a better place.  Sooner or later, we will also be taking the same path and will be embracing new things that are in store for us.  For now, this is your time, so savor the moment.

We may have lost a companion during lunch and merienda, but we did not lose a friend.  Our paths will definitely cross along the way.  Remember, no goodbyes - until we see each other again.

God bless and good luck. J

_Anj

When is enough, enough?

Overworked?  Unrecognized?  Unrequited love?  All these questions and more, make one stop for a while and look back on all the things that had happened in his/her life.  You may ask yourself questions like “Am I happy with where I am now?”, “Should I give up?”, “Is it worth it?” or “Can I still hold on?”.  These uncertainties are only realized when one felt that maybe, just maybe, things are already going overboard and he/she starts to have that I-can’t-take-this-anymore kind of vibe.  That vibe, which makes you feel that enough could really be enough.

This does not contradict to one being contented with what he/she has.  You may say you are contented with where you are and with what you have, but at the back of your mind, you know that you are about to give up.  Why do these things happen?  You wake up one morning with a clear thought in your head and then the next day it is all blurry.  Your motivation drops down from ten to one.  Or you were made to realize that the one person that you may have possibly loved, unfortunately, does not love you back.  Then your world starts to stumble down.  The forces of nature will make you petulant.  Bitterness will flow into your bloodstream.

Enough is enough, for sure.  But being the world’s number one enemy will definitely not help.  Optimism is the key.  You feel you are overworked, but underpaid and you feel like all your efforts are deemed unrecognized?  Why suffer emotionally and be cranky all your way down to hell?  Go and do whatever you do with utmost perfection, find a job that would suit your conditions, and live peacefully.  You feel unwanted and unnoticed by that one person you think would make your life complete?  Who the heck cares about that person?  Learn to love and respect yourself first and the rest will follow.  Sooner than you notice, all eyes will be on you - those who have seen how precious and worthy you are.

Nothing in this life should be worried about.  It is for the reason that God is always with us.  A Great Provider that He is, you will never be left alone and empty.

_Anj

Summer Lovin'

It is summer time once again!  The heat of the sun is making this season more apparent.  People are showing off their summer outfits and their summer vacation photos.  Indeed, most of us found a way to make each minute of the season alive and refreshing.  As for me, keeping myself hydrated, is just about enough to keep me going.  Do yourself a favor, drink tons of h2o to prevent heat stroke.  I have seen and heard a few who suffered from such, so please, let us have fun and take care of ourselves as well.

'Tis the summer season to be jolly as well.  Since April, one of the summer months, is my birth month too.  Another plus in my years of existence.  But hey, age is just a number, right?!  For me, it is another chance, out of the multiple chances we have in this lifetime, to be grateful for everything that God has given us.  I am thankful as well to the people that I have met and for those whom I will be meeting along the way.  Thank you for each story that you have shared and will be sharing with me in the coming days, weeks, months, and years.

Make yourself shine this summer.

Be fit.  Be nice.  Be yourself.  Be the best that you can be. >wink< >wink<

_Anj

Some things just hurt.

Having a tooth removed could bring you extraordinary pain you never thought could happen.  It was something you hold on to after having a complete set of permanent teeth.  Now, you went through surgery, face cringed.  And just like that, the precious little one was gone.

You thought everything is over, but the pain still lingers, reminding you of what fate has brought you.  Then you will realize that it is not just the physical pain that disturbs you, but the emotional hurt as well.  Drama emanates from the fact that one of the things that you have taken cared of caused you so much pain.  It was like betrayal at its finest.  There is nothing you can do, but just submit to the consequences.

Good thing, there is healing in the process of moving on.  It feels like forever having to keep such from bleeding.  You try a lot of techniques.  And eventually, it will just stop.  After the numbness, the traumatic pain, and all that; it will just stop.  Before you know it, you are far better than okay.  You are happier than ever.  You are proud of yourself for being just plain strong.  It is when you can finally say, "I have moved on.".

Just like in love, right?!

\:D/

_Anj