XOXO A...

To the guy who inspired me since my teenage years, thank you.  You may not know that you have made me smile and made me feel good about life, but you did.  I can say that high school will never be the same if you had not come to our school as a newcomer where I wished that we were in the same class.  Well close enough when it was your sister instead.  I may have cried when I first saw you holding the hand of the girl you liked.  I have accepted then that you are not going to like the nerdy girl next door, although I never lost hope that someday you might get to notice me.  Years have passed; we were out of the same school, both living each other’s lives.  You have had a fair number of relationships, while I remained single all these years.  I have once forgotten about you and thought I have moved on.  But thanks to a friend who made me realize that a crush is not really someone that you are supposed to move on with.  A crush will always be a crush.  Yes, a crush – sounds so adolescent, isn’t it?  I have not seen you in years, except in pictures posted in your Facebook account.  You have become quite a man now.  And then I find myself liking you again.  When will I ever learn?  I learned the art of not feeling hurt every time you are in a relationship.  I guess the only art that I have not mastered in this given situation is the art of letting go.  My mind says to let go of the infatuation that I feel towards you, but my heart is telling otherwise.  I think all these sound preposterous.  I know that I will never have that chance with you.  Unrequited is my term – I basically lived with this word attached to my system.  It is quite disappointing though - having to like or love someone who can never like or love you back, even notice you.  I am not sure now if I should continue feeling this way.  Though I still find myself secretly wishing that somehow, in the nearest future, it would be your turn to draw hearts around my name.

#A #JesusSaves

_Anj

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for the love of Dance

Dancing is my way of expressing myself, bringing out my artistic side.  It has helped me deal with stress and made me feel more comfortable with myself.  I am not innately confident with how I look, but whenever I dance, even when I am alone or with an audience, I always feel beautiful.  I blame it on the energy, the adrenaline rush that keeps you going like you are in some sort of a trance.  Even if I am just in one place as long as I can hear an upbeat music, I will imagine myself dancing to that tune and just feel happy – plain and simple.  I may love singing, but dancing will always be my first love.  I used to hate the art, feeling awkward with how I move.  But as you let it occur to you, you really would not care of how you look when you move, you just let yourself loose.

Every time I sing my heart out, I would vision myself dancing as well.  It is always like I-was-born-to-dance kind of vibe.  The movements you make help you forget every worry, stress, disappointments and negative energy.  It is only when I dance that I am able to let go of everything and just go with the flow.

I believe we are all artistic in our own ways.  I think that dancing is an art.  I am bad in drawing stuff; do not know how to play any musical instruments; and other artsy stuff.  But at least I know how to dance and I certainly love it.

_Anj

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Happy 2014!

My first heartache for the year 2014 is something that I may not forget for quite some time.  While it is true that not all things you want will be given to you, I fathom the fact that in God’s perfect timing, everything will be done according to His Will.  Yes for now it would hurt and would bother you, but trust that this happened for a reason; and soon, before you even know it, you will be smiling like you have never smiled before.

Basically, I am writing this to constantly remind myself that life is good; God is good.  Maybe you could get something out of my words too.  Maybe this is what you need to finally move forward, to prepare yourself for the adventures that were laid for you to experience.  Maybe you were already sulking too much over the past year/s that it is now time to give yourself a favor and love yourself after hiding away from so much pain.

This is the New Year – another chance to become better, another opportunity to grow, another occasion to be merry and free.  So for those who are in pain, be it physically or emotionally; for those who are content with loneliness; for those who are thinking that they are in deep trouble; I am sending you my prayers.  I am sharing to you the positive vibe that I am feeling at this moment.  I am one with you in facing the challenges and consequently celebrating this year’s faith, happiness, and success.

Let us live with the greeting “Happy New Year” by being truly happy for 2014.

#Live #love #laugh

_Anj

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