better days are coming..

I am usually someone who writes something about heartaches and sadness. I guess being sad is a good material for writing. Songwriters would agree, hence, a lot of sad songs are liked by many. I, for one, get inspired to write during a heartbreak.

When I met him, suddenly, the world I live in became a better place. I was full of life. All the things I feel for him I always tell myself to put into writing. But it is only now that I have decided to finish it. Now, that we have parted ways.

Have you ever felt something so strong for someone in a short span of time?  Does it feel so easy whenever you are with that person?  No complications.  Less drama.  You know you have been happy before.  But this was a different kind of happy.  It was a happy – happy kind; the kind where you smile like a child with her favorite ice cream and cookie in hand.  That was a new feeling – a great, new feeling.  Being with that special person made you forget everything.

You and me.  Us.  Do you like the sound of that? I did.

I swear when you look at me, my heart flutters.  I even question if that was still normal, considering my age.  You made me feel young again. The thought of being with you gave me so much fear and excitement at the same time. Yes, I had so many fears. I feared the arguments that will come our way. I feared the moment that you will get sick and tired of me, of us. But above all, I feared losing you. Remember the time when you asked me if I were ignoring you (just after our third date), at that exact moment, I knew that I do not want to lose you. I know, you had your fears too. But we still tried. And I am glad we did. I am thankful for everything that we have been through as a couple and as an individual.

How I wish I published this long before when we were still okay. So you could see how much you have inspired me. I may have finished this a little too late, but I hope you would still be able to read this. To my great plot twist, here I am raising my wine glass.. a toast to our hopes and dreams. Until we see each other again. :)